288 hours and I’m 21. Cannot believe this.Time flies so fast that there is any minute to regret, to look back and to judge.
Since I’m not 21 yet, I thought I’d stop for a minute and judge. But not that surround, not the people, just ME. Is there something I can be proud of, is there something that I’m ashamed of, is there is something that can be changed.
Being a normal person or pretending to be one, I’ll start with more pleasant things.
At the age of 21 I:
- graduated from musical school (piano department) – thanks to my parents who at the proper time(!) singed me in, who encouraged me all that time to practice, who explained my how great it is to play on a musical instrument, who insisted on finishing the whole course. THANK YOU SO MUCH. Back then may be I didn’t appreciate it properly, but now I understand full commitment. I’m so grateful.
Maybe, for sure actually they are not reading my blog, but still want them to know.
- finished high school. No magna cum laude, but again thanks to my parents I got decent high-quality education that allowed me to accomplish my next point.
- entered the university. Financial University under the Government of Russian Federation. Me and economics – who could even think about? But still going strong – this year actually graduating and now in the middle of writing my degree paper concerning risk-management in bank sector. Even I’m shocked.
- started learning Spanish. The language of my dreams. The language the flow like a song, never ever ending one.
Speaking about things I should be ashamed of, there is not any major ones I suppose, because now I’m trying to dig something out from the bottom of my minds – and nothing. Lied. Successful digging. Spanish classes. I dropped them. Since September ’12 (after 2.5 years of hard work – language is always work. You cannot not learn a language with out making an effort unless you’re permanently living in the nature habit. Not my case) I stopped attending classes due to the increasing working load the university. Shame on me. Also one of the new year resolutions was to learn 5 new spanish words. Do you think I learnt at least one? NO. Fail again.
Another fail and the thing I’m still failing is job hunting. I made a list of possible things a could do and nothing. It is still just a list of things I want to do, but not
the list of things I’m doing. Sad.
Seems like I can keep on judging. But should be the time to change things.
Time to become DOING person, not just WANTING TO DO.